well, it's not really an official holiday. is just that my parents and my brother came back from Aussie on Saturday 5/11/2011. the end of my living-alone-plan for the future ~.. is not bad at all ~ where i can hang out with my bros(friends) and they overnight my house. is like living the American dreams~(i really have no idea what their dreams are,LOL)
anyway, since today is the last day ~ i made a 6 hour before the bbq party plan and it works well(except for the chicken, no time to marinate it which taste pretty good for an 1 hour marinate). Eaten A LOT of food and i still left with 7 hotdogs+ 5 piece of chicken+ few bottles of soda and some bread. GODDAMMIT, how am i suppose to finish this all! )#@(*_!#@_@#. *okayguyface.jpg*(google this if you don't know), ima finish it all.. hopefully.
although it was suppose to be a good day.. somehow it didn't. because my crush just joke something cruel.. and i know she meant it as a joke.. but somehow it hurts like my eye staring at the sun for 3 whole hours. well, although she and i are just friends. somehow deep down in my heart have this hope of her, at least i hope she cares about me. Didn't happen, it didn't at all. but i guess we are even.. since i did hurt her before,the naive past of me.
i know that i gave up on chasing on fairy tales(romantics), but my mind kept thinking and thinking. i do not like forcing my love to her, since i don't like people forcing their ideas on me. if it hurts me just to make her happy, then is worth being in pain. it is best for 1 people to be happy than making both unhappy. pain.. it hurts, but it will make me stronger. all i know is, there is always a better guy out there for her. so go get them! :D
-i do no need your love, just to see your smile is enough-
Friday, November 4, 2011
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