Decisions..

Oh well, looks like my degree course is gonna start in october(assuming i can pass my diploma).. they say my intake has a choice to go out further studies in overseas.. so im not sure i want to take or not.. i just want to leave this god damn place... it gives bad memories.... ntg good will come out of it... but still.. i want to see it to the very end.. probably somewhere in my heart.. there's still one person i cant let go.. but if the day has come.. she has someone else.. probably that is the day where hell break lose and i decide to depart to aussie.. well, so im gonna take another 2 years in UCTI degree course in here.. after that.. we'll see whether i live to see my happiness at hand.. or leave in vain from this country and start a new purpose in overseas...

-Although dreams and hope should be decided by my own hand.. but i cant see both of them without you...-

True Log:probably is just an excuse.. i make no effort in chasing her.. fear of what will happen in the future.. i mean.. is so gloomy and unpredictable.. and she usually just hang out with her friends.. what more could she want? she has everything that is satisfied her needs in daily life... and besides, i had a feeling that soon she gonna have someone special(my instincts do fail me sometime but 90% works like a charm)..so basically is like i saw the end of the tunnel before the train has started to move.. Hah... ironically.. its for the best interest.. if you really love someone.. and she love another person.. best it's to let her go.. forcing one person love is like forcing one ideology to another person.. might as well just focus on my study and leave this place.. there's really nothing for me here now..and besides, im just a mean to her in the end.. but it's good enough for me..