Alienated?

i feel very terrible at some point, i mean her friends can tease her but not me.. every time i tease her she instantaneously ask me to stop.. i just don't understand anymore, but if it's really that offending then i apologize. Furthermore,is quite hard to chat with her these days, especially when she currently focusing on her studies.. and when i want to ask her about her day, she just ask me to refer to her blog.. is really quite sad and futile. so that's why i decided to tease her in her wall but *sigh*. anyway, either im not trying hard enough or the effort is not noticeable.. anyway i decided that i should just give up..just 14 more days.. after leaving i probably have to focus on my studies, because im choosing one of the toughest course in I.T over my initial plan to become a gaming developer. im just gonna send this mug which will describe the past 4 year of my memory and let it go. These feelings has been with me for a long time which 4 year+ and i still manage to keep it with me.


Thank you, for not to see this and i bid you all the best in your studies. you have certainly make me to strive become a better person which my mom cant even convince me. your presence just makes me feel like i could go for it, but now is the time to wake up and face the truth of reality.