Dreams..

What a bummer... woke up feeling devastated.. i actually cried, knowing some part of me just died after that dream. Well, usually most people wouldn't recall what they have dreamt about.. this one was unique. I have long lost the need of her affection, yet in my dream.. seeing her with someone else..hearing that she did "it".. totally crush me.. isn't that a happy life for her? knowing that she could get a better man that can make happy is the thing i ever need? i... suppose is for the best.. yet i do not feel happy at all.. not one bit. Is this what it takes to be human? i do not want to see myself being in this state. i hope i don't dream this thing again.. or perhaps if i could master the lucid dreaming, then i could control or rather shape my dream.. Anyway, i rather live my life in a solitude. Perhaps games would be the only thing i ever need.. ever since my childhood, is all about games.. fun times.. and my cute sheep ~. I think thats all for now.. is been a long time i ever seen her, since our last encounter.
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best of luck.. peyloo-chan~ may a G.A find your soulmate sooner~