The Path of Ascension

im gonna write this blog as a self promise. i will not blog until i finish my assignment and ace my test.. i will not bother going out alot(unless i make a promise earlier with someone). it's hard to do it since im officially addicted to games. i hardly stop gaming unless for a good reason, like my spm year moment.. i completely stop gaming for 3 months. i thought im cured from gaming, but it seems my addiction for it wont wear off completely! dam.. oh well, this time is degree. i must at least get a second upper degree if i want to do well in the real world(thats what my bro told me) or i have to study master.

so, im gonna less gaming than usual.. probably play just to maintain my skill(actually pro no nid~) *ahem*. can't wait till i done my assignment.. i would be probably happy enough to live for another 1 month before start sem again.. *shrugs* oh well, that would be probably beginning of February.

-if i can't study well, why do i even bother achieving other task..-

but it's good to know you been happier ... i suppose, feels like im out of the whole big picture. but it's just me i presume.

-Thought of the day-
I always wonder if there is someone out there who i could share my entire life stories.. mom used to tell me that fate is a tricky event.. unexpected things will eventually come within your grasp.. but i don't believe in such crap. nothing will come if you wait for fate to play apart in your hand.. at least i have stop believing in fate that will make me be with her..

I was always mentally challenged, that i am alone.. wandering in a journey through the depths of hell where pain and despair gives you wisdom about humanity. Is never been beautiful, but at least it will be a beauty if we chose what we believe.the human will power has made me pass through these hardship..and i will believe..no, i will make it happen.. that one day, i will find a person that i can share my loneliness and turn it into a fragment of memory which fill with joy..

for now, i will endure this feeling.. so much negative thoughts and pain.. is like tearing my inner body apart.. it feels so heavy.. so painful..
-end-


P.S:bakuman manga is really tear jerking at some point >_< i envy their relationship :)