The Ugly Nature

-Thoughts of the day-
i think i been an ass lately(not the usual funny type). when you feel that you have so much authority in your hand, you tend to go overboard. heck, i even exploit the human nature feeling 'guilt' by making them to do my bidding. i promise myself i wont relive my past.. but it seems the real 'me' still buried within me.. it's really hard to get rid of what has made me become this monstrosity. well, im not even sure why i would refrain myself from doing so... perhaps a part of my conscious still strongly feel that i had hope? i doubt so..

it's not like i have anyone to impress/flatter anymore. it pains me to know that i seldom see her at all and i figuratively gave up on it.. not literally. what's even better that,my test is coming soon and i am still attach to it.

i always thought study would keep my mind off.. but it's the opposite. the more you don't feel like caring, it makes you care more. hopefully i can sort this thing out after i finish everything.. perhaps a flick of spark might be a good start. it might sound ironic but, what can you expect a guy afraid of girls?

hope i can totally forgot about the neway incident.. it just startled me and froze me up whenever i remember it... the horror.. *shivers*

-Today episode-

oh well, aside from that. today parents bring us out to giant supermarket.. it seems more like a shopping complex.. very well decorated/organize.. unlike anything in our karefour area >_>.. the best thing is.. it has SUBWAY! om nom nom* it's very near comparing that you nid to drive to ss15 subway shop. now i can just drive to giant and buy the subway <3. now i don't nid to drive all the way(in the process of getting traffic jam on the way and coming back). hopefully all the shop will open nearby area so i can save more time to go and eat the things i like. best thing ever happen to my mom, most of her favorite shop open nearby in kota kemuning ~ oh.. and i earn alot today in iris online :D





wish you were here playing with me >_>