Outing!

today is Sunday, a whole day outing with family. so basically i and my parents went out for our usual Sunday walk in Taman Rakyat. This time my bro didn't follow due to his working hour(Midnight). After that, went to eat bak kut teh(BKT) at... kinda forgotten where but somewhere in Klang.

Anyway, after eaten BKT.. went back home and waited till 3 o clock to see a show call "great day"



and yes, i watch it for the second time(just for the lulz). First time watch it with my friends = Kasheng(respect),Jeewa(respect),Crys,Chooi Foong(crys's mom),Pey Ruo,Hung(bro).

After watch the movie for the SECOND time, went to shop some clothing for Chinese New Year(typically im not fond of buying cloths but i kinda like it now). Bought a Black and Red Shirt.



and yes again, im not good at taking these kind of photo. it took us at least an hour or more to finish our shopping spree. later on we went to eat steamboat.. i seriously hate waiting for seats but eventually we found one and settle down.



My Mom in that picture. she got impatient and wanted to go to the other shop which looks empty. but since we got the seat, she just waited anyway.



my bro hoarding the food! rushhhhhhh.

that's it for now, gotta rush my assignment this week. due date on friday, FML.

New opening

i guess i wont be blogging much on this private blog.. i probably post my rants on here just to feel better. but i doubt i have much used for it now. anyway, gonna focus on this week! GUNG HO!

Part of me have died

-Name:C-
well, is been a long time i posted.. well i probably make this an exception since it's something that i realized. maybe some experience is not meant for me to be discovered.. or probably i give up too soon. oh well, probably im not suitable to experience love.there are so much out there waiting for me to be discovered, im done reminiscing on the past.

hey, at least i tried. if she didn't get it.. well, sucks to be me then :) or maybe i sucked at courting girls. looks like im done with this chapter. kinda funny tho, some of my friend share their experience on their love life. it made me felt fearful at one point, it sounded like a share market. it's really unexpected.

tho it might be just me, i have a feeling that she would be less friendly with me. well, since she just give me short replies. but that's just me. yep probably me.

No matter how much you love that person, Life Still Goes on-Nicole Soh

i agree, it might just seems pitiful but yea. you might love her till the very end, and she wouldn't even notice it. but we all had a good laugh about it :) i dont mind telling people about it tho.."hey, i love this girl for the past 5 years and she still don't know about it or couldn't care less. hahahaha". *everyone go stone* . . .
okay, bad idea.. but really, i dont mind telling anymore. alright chapter ends now

-Chapter End:Name C-

Anyway, before i went to play basketball, today i went out to a gathering. meeting the NOTD creators, we kinda chat alot of stuff and out topics lol. then one of the notd players karu came by and join us for the gathering. we had a good time there and possibly further notd events will be coming soon(just a hopeful guess)

-Live to win,Love till Death aparts-

The Path of Ascension

im gonna write this blog as a self promise. i will not blog until i finish my assignment and ace my test.. i will not bother going out alot(unless i make a promise earlier with someone). it's hard to do it since im officially addicted to games. i hardly stop gaming unless for a good reason, like my spm year moment.. i completely stop gaming for 3 months. i thought im cured from gaming, but it seems my addiction for it wont wear off completely! dam.. oh well, this time is degree. i must at least get a second upper degree if i want to do well in the real world(thats what my bro told me) or i have to study master.

so, im gonna less gaming than usual.. probably play just to maintain my skill(actually pro no nid~) *ahem*. can't wait till i done my assignment.. i would be probably happy enough to live for another 1 month before start sem again.. *shrugs* oh well, that would be probably beginning of February.

-if i can't study well, why do i even bother achieving other task..-

but it's good to know you been happier ... i suppose, feels like im out of the whole big picture. but it's just me i presume.

-Thought of the day-
I always wonder if there is someone out there who i could share my entire life stories.. mom used to tell me that fate is a tricky event.. unexpected things will eventually come within your grasp.. but i don't believe in such crap. nothing will come if you wait for fate to play apart in your hand.. at least i have stop believing in fate that will make me be with her..

I was always mentally challenged, that i am alone.. wandering in a journey through the depths of hell where pain and despair gives you wisdom about humanity. Is never been beautiful, but at least it will be a beauty if we chose what we believe.the human will power has made me pass through these hardship..and i will believe..no, i will make it happen.. that one day, i will find a person that i can share my loneliness and turn it into a fragment of memory which fill with joy..

for now, i will endure this feeling.. so much negative thoughts and pain.. is like tearing my inner body apart.. it feels so heavy.. so painful..
-end-


P.S:bakuman manga is really tear jerking at some point >_< i envy their relationship :)

TimeTable~

maybe i should make myself a timetable.. i having problem restraining myself from playing >_>.. well, i should start deleting most of my games(is a good start).. not all of them :P. maybe 6 hours gaming per day would be good.

anyway, besides that.. not sure whats wrong with my brain chemistry.. it's worsening than i thought. maybe im just tired or desperate, im not so sure of myself either. i seriously have no time for this kind of crap :/. it's like a haunting image that every few sec i picture her in my mind. Probably i been sleeping late for quite a long time. im gonna start sleeping at 11 pm these time..

i just wanna live another 10-50 years(assuming i didn't get hit by a train or unicorns) and goes with the flow. i didn't expect much from my life anyway,

-when life gives you lemon, you make lemonade.. well i don't-

The Ugly Nature

-Thoughts of the day-
i think i been an ass lately(not the usual funny type). when you feel that you have so much authority in your hand, you tend to go overboard. heck, i even exploit the human nature feeling 'guilt' by making them to do my bidding. i promise myself i wont relive my past.. but it seems the real 'me' still buried within me.. it's really hard to get rid of what has made me become this monstrosity. well, im not even sure why i would refrain myself from doing so... perhaps a part of my conscious still strongly feel that i had hope? i doubt so..

it's not like i have anyone to impress/flatter anymore. it pains me to know that i seldom see her at all and i figuratively gave up on it.. not literally. what's even better that,my test is coming soon and i am still attach to it.

i always thought study would keep my mind off.. but it's the opposite. the more you don't feel like caring, it makes you care more. hopefully i can sort this thing out after i finish everything.. perhaps a flick of spark might be a good start. it might sound ironic but, what can you expect a guy afraid of girls?

hope i can totally forgot about the neway incident.. it just startled me and froze me up whenever i remember it... the horror.. *shivers*

-Today episode-

oh well, aside from that. today parents bring us out to giant supermarket.. it seems more like a shopping complex.. very well decorated/organize.. unlike anything in our karefour area >_>.. the best thing is.. it has SUBWAY! om nom nom* it's very near comparing that you nid to drive to ss15 subway shop. now i can just drive to giant and buy the subway <3. now i don't nid to drive all the way(in the process of getting traffic jam on the way and coming back). hopefully all the shop will open nearby area so i can save more time to go and eat the things i like. best thing ever happen to my mom, most of her favorite shop open nearby in kota kemuning ~ oh.. and i earn alot today in iris online :D





wish you were here playing with me >_>

Realism

Some people start off their dream as a mere illusion.. then slowly turn it into reality.. i wonder if i can do that too?anyway, i been having the same old nightmares every week(at least once). yep, the same old nightmare.. i was getting tired of it tho(not that is scary but same old shit to me >_>).. i wonder what does that even signify.

anyway, i been wondering if i could make a difference every time i see her... most of the people(include me) dream about their love life and unconditional love to them(not that i really bother now, but just wondering). well, if i have to start.. i suppose i could try to get rid of my gynephobia(wonder if i need to go to a physiotherapist). it's a good start.. oh well, in any case. i should focus on my study right now >_>.. however, if given a chance.. i will take a shot, no matter how many times i drop. i will eventually get back up.

besides that, i got my internet back up!(Happy face :D) and celebrated wai yip birthday(too bad no cake on the face D:). oh well, time to sleep and tmr draw ERD and normalization(self reminder).. and study MALG! Mathematics algorithm if anyone bother to know(doubt so >_>)